Sitting in the stillness can be daunting
God heard you when you asked Him for that thing. He is actually taking note of how you wait. Are you open to experience His fruitfulness if that means patience? A lot of us have not grown in patience and understanding, trusting that the right things come at the right time.
I have been fasting for three days. The tumultuous toll it is taking on me to just sit in the waiting is almost driving me mad. Truth is, this is the type of waiting God experiences in our journey to repentance and salvation. It is important that we look to God for strength. Make sure to saturate in the wisdom to be comforted knowing and actually believing that things you desire are already available.
Many struggle to believe what cannot be seen beyond the naked eye. God has provided and manifested all of it in the spirit. The question stands in what capacity are you holding for that which He wants to grant you.
I am tired
The journey to draw nearer to Christ can be so fulfilling and inspiring. A lot of it can overwhelm your spirit because you’ve had the opportunity to experience such miraculous works. God loves His children and in His word He has promised to provide and prosper you. He really does administer a good work in us.
Right now, I am tired. I’m tired of waiting, I’m tired of the obstacles and I am so very tired of the confusion that is fighting so hard to consume me. A lot of walking with God requires surrender and rest. I know that He is faithful to perform, but I am just so tired. God is not a magic houdini in the lamp, He supersedes that.
My mind right now through this fast may really be experiencing the enemy’s doubt. Trying to tear me away from receiving what God has for me. That is so challenging. The power of prayer is a beautiful weapon alongside reading the word. But I need to know that sometimes there are others that feel weak, feel like they are actually sitting in the longing.
Then I need those same people that admit their trials, to show me the scriptures that get them through. Today in an hour of prayer, God directed me to Job 42 and then to Psalms 20. In the past I would read the bible like it was a regular book. But this is so far from regular, it is immensely profound. In the past I would plead and beg, not recognizing that my posture in asking of such things does not replicate Gods way.
Refer back to this in efforts to align your posture with His will here.
Your desires must be rooted in the Kingdom
God is a God who cannot lie. He lets it be known to you that when you ask, there is an open opportunity to receive. There has to be a strength in you that knows how to encourage yourself. Why is the waiting so hard? Why are there times where I just want to let go?
If ever you stumbled upon the book of Job you know like I know the endurance of His faith was necessary for us to witness. Through it all, in Job 42 he replies to the Lord and says “I know that you can do ANYTHING and no plan of yours can be thwarted.” I needed that today. What really made me holler was when Job later apologized for questioning what God can do. “I had heard reports about you, but now my eyes have seen you.”
Are you ever remorseful in questioning God? Maybe even doubting the immense joy He can bring you? I know I am. I’ve uprooted myself from a decent paying job, all of my family and friends and sadly my comfort. I asked God what He wanted me to do, and in obedience I quit my job and moved to a new state. It’s been a month now and I still have no job, no means to take care of myself. I am concerned. Then I remember because God can do anything, He is working it out for my good.
You can read Job 42 here.
Like you, I am waiting
I am praying God exceeds my expectations. In my efforts to be transparent I am hoping to also bear some relatability in whatever trial you are facing. The circumstances we face may cause us to go into isolation, when God really calls us to seek community. Don’t be crippled by your storm, ask God to be your light. He promises to prosper us. He surely let it be known that all things are being worked together for our good. Even if you don’t understand now, I hope this is a wave of hope for you!
Keep praying, keep trusting and don’t stop working. Working towards whatever He has promised you!
In this era of waiting, I had to fast to grow closer to Him. I had to truly seek His kingdom, to believe during the fight I am worthy of good things. Please don’t give up. If in need of insight or just a safe dumping ground leave me a message or a comment! Be patient, be intentional and be kind! There are others like you that are waiting on His promise to!
Sincerely, Nina’s Virtue
